Tuesday, March 29, 2005 . 9:48 PM
I can't believe this...I just can't. Looks like I skipped to conclusions too quickly... I was wrong
SO wrong...
*Bleedin' in the heart* I think I can never trust you again...
Gosh, this is really painful... Hear my heart scream in frustration.
- Part of BEHIND THIS HAZEL EYES... this song is so apt
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
...
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
I won't cry... not anymore. Time to put my drama skills to the test... Can't believe I have to do this...
Sunday, March 27, 2005 . 12:50 PM
Woohoo! Finally figured out how to put up my wishlist... not so HTML chi dai le.. haha. Budden I tried so hard to change the colour and it's still blue! Sob... never mind, I'll try again another day.. sure can do it!
Hmm... yesterday was quite fun.. except for something that happened in EL that got me quite pissed off. Luckily I didn't stay angry for long.. or else both of them's gonna get it from me. During EL... I've been desparately trying to teach Shaun how to read 'Isn't it' properly. His pronounciation ar... haiz, no comments. Always cannot read the 'T' sound in the 'Isn't'... yoh. Anyway.. went home after EL and I was exhausted. Rested for half an hour before going to Seletar Reservoir to join Joshua and Christel and gang... for BBQ. Forgot that I had to climb over a low metal railing... I actually wore a skirt... XP... but luckily I still managed to climb over the railing... safely.. -.-"
Alrite.. I better go do my tuition homework... forever last minute one.. haiz~ When will my wish ever come true? (refer to ma wishlist!.. hehe)
Alrite.. I better go do my tuition homework... forever last minute one.. haiz~ When will my wish ever come true? (refer to ma wishlist!.. hehe)
Friday, March 25, 2005 . 9:30 PM
Went to Tiffany's house today to celebrate Peisi's and her birthday. Arrived only at about 2+ even though the party started at 12+. Tiffany's mom made a fantastic cheese cake and we walloped the whole cake! Wah... wish i could make such a good cake. Anyway, we stayed till 3.45pm cause the rest all went to watch Jian Gui 10. Only a few like Samantha and Sandra stayed at Tiff's house. CX went to my house and we sang karaoke... lol. We mastered a duet by Liang Jing Ru and Guang Liang. It was a nice song, I sang the man's part. Alrite... nth much liao. Tomorrow will have loads of things though. Bye!~Haiz~ Yesterday went to EL and got my hair permed AGAIN. This time was not too bad coz i could accept that hairstyle [of Niang i mean. If u want me to do it permanently, I'll kill u]. However, I didn't bring my shampoo!! Aiyoh... but nontheless, I still had to go ahead with it. Then Dorothy also applied make-up onto my face and even plucked my eyebrows! You have no idea how painful it is... gosh. When my 'makeover' was done... I just wondered on the other side of da art room. Kept walking up and down and singing. Something was wrong with me. After EL, I changed out of my costume and washed my hair. Even though i had no shampoo, I had to at least calm that vivacious hair down or I will never step out of that art room! I also didn't have facial cleanser so i could only use wet tissue to try to remove some of the make-up. At that time, I was still jolly and cheerful, but as I was walking home... I turned gloomy. I also have no idea why I suddenly became depressed. Just had this very heavy heart. Hong Ying was also feeling a bit upset so we decided to go swing. We also shared some problems that we had and promised to go the beach one day to scream our hearts out. Can't wait for that. Remember last year when i went to the beach at night after our class BBQ to scream... boy it was great. Then later i went home.. a bit frustrated and angry. No mood to go online so i switched on the air-con in the TV room and listened to music. Mood sings are bad... very bad. They just make those around you upset as well. Well, what to do... PMS mahz.. -.-" But thank god i woke up today feeling better. Going to Tiffany's house today to celebrate Peisi's and her birthday. The jovial atmosphere should lift my spirits up. Oh ya.. and if u realised, I'm not sticking to blue so much anymore. Decided to make my blog more colourful so as to give it some life. OK... shall stop here. Bye bye.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005 . 9:23 PM
Haiyo... today was SIAN. Did the chinese mock exam paper and SS, while the boys had an enjoyable time at Mission. Next week gonna start lesson proper le, so i better enjoy my week first. Tomorrow got CCA, Friday is holiday, Sat got BBQ at Seletar Reservoir and Sun got wedding dinner! Wootz~ Enjoyable week!
After school today, I went to da art room only to hear Mdm farah complain that Ah Sun's costume is missing! WTF... the receipt is present but the costume's gone! The most likely reason is that we lost it on our way back to school from Chinatown that day or it could be Hsu Li who brought it home.... but that's like only 0.1% possibility. So, it we did lose it, Mdm farah's gonna blow and she's gonna have to get it again.. too bad
Later, I went back up to class and some gals were like chatting with the cleaners. They pestered them for ghost stories but they only said one. So i told them a few that Ben told me... creepy... But the most dampening thing of the day was when i was at CGH. They told me the machine broke down! What e tooot!!!!!!!!! Haiz... hope it get's repaired soon. Dun wanna stop and got back to first stage again. STUPID machine!
So i went home, only to find Ben snoring away in bed. It was 5.30pm and he's still sleeping now. Saw from his MSN nick that he didn't sleep at camp at all, cause it was too hot. So he actually chatted with 4 other friends till dawn. Pro or what? And now.. look at him... exhausted until... haiz~
*Yawn* Ok.. like what the heck, I also want to sleep soon. Yesterday watched My Date With A Vampire 3 till 11+. That show rocks arh! I watched like 9 episodes altoghther, from 3pm onwards. Wootz~ want another marathon like that again! Missed watching tv.. but the irony was that the show was played on my com... lol.. -.-"
Alrite... shall stop here. Chow! [Hmm... feel like using red today, dunno why. Just feel like it. Maybe cause it's the colour of love bahz.]
So i went home, only to find Ben snoring away in bed. It was 5.30pm and he's still sleeping now. Saw from his MSN nick that he didn't sleep at camp at all, cause it was too hot. So he actually chatted with 4 other friends till dawn. Pro or what? And now.. look at him... exhausted until... haiz~
*Yawn* Ok.. like what the heck, I also want to sleep soon. Yesterday watched My Date With A Vampire 3 till 11+. That show rocks arh! I watched like 9 episodes altoghther, from 3pm onwards. Wootz~ want another marathon like that again! Missed watching tv.. but the irony was that the show was played on my com... lol.. -.-"
Alrite... shall stop here. Chow! [Hmm... feel like using red today, dunno why. Just feel like it. Maybe cause it's the colour of love bahz.]
Monday, March 21, 2005 . 9:14 PM
Today a mission group came to our school and the Sec 4 girls attended the 'talk'. The boys stayed in class and had mock exams... >.<.. our turn on Wednesday and Thursday. Well, the group touched on self-acceptance and self-esteem and they also shared some of their personal stories. We also played a few games and did a bit of sharing. The best part was when they gave us some silent moments to do self reflection and let us think about the things and events going on in our lives. Closer to the end of the session, they talked about friendship and made us sit in a circle and close our eyes. They played soft soothing music and told us to think about the four years we had in Secondary school. Later, they told us to write a note to the friends that we wanted to say thank you or sorry to. At first, I was fine but when Sabrina came to sit beside me and told me that she was crying because she was thinking of Ansley, I couldn't help it and started to cry as well. The tears were like immediate. I thought I got over this failed friendship but i guess not. Haiz~ We ended the session with the hymn "Friends" and i cried again. The line "And friends are friends forever," really struck me deep. I can't believe I cried because of her. I just can't believe it...
And oh yah... HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!!!!!!~
And oh yah... HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!!!!!!~
Saturday, March 19, 2005 . 12:38 PM
Yesterday was the geography challenge 2005 finals. My team - CX, Magdalene, Cheryl Ang and Marianne - had to go around the island with the help of clues to find the various stations scattered around the island of Singapore. We had to complete 6 stops before they close at 4pm and go to Toa Payoh HDB hub before 5pm, or else we would be disqualified. OK.. so you've got the overview of what we were suppose to do. Now let me tell you what really happened!
Alright. As registration starts at 7.15am, my team and I met at Pasir Ris MRT at 6am. We headed for Clementi and arrived at about 7.40am at NUS. We registered and waited in the Lecture Theatre. Before the competition could start, we had to do a word puzzle! Sheesh.. luckily it was not too bad. Despite it being on current affairs, we still managed to pull through. We found the 'password' to be GEOGRAPHY IMAGINATION and we got our first clue. It was 9.20am.
Alrite, so the first clue was like a picture of a scenic view in Southern China and they said it was the Singapore Version. Using the map grid reference, we found the place to be at Bukit Gombak. So we travelled to Bukit Batok via bus and took a MRT train to Bukit Gombak. BIG mistake... cause we actually wasted a lot of time on travelling. We should have just taken a bus to Clementi and then go to Bukit Gombak via MRT. Haiz~
But nonetheless, we found out where we were suppose to go... UP A FREAKIN STEEP HILL! I was like OMG... SO we climbed and we climbed and we climbed... and we finally reached the top! Woohoo....
HOWEVER, upon arrival at the peak, the marshalls asked us for the clue so we handed them that clue with the view of Southern China and they said that it was NOT THE CLUE THEY WANTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We were shocked.. literally stunned. So we asked them which clue they wanted... and they said that it was the clue that the marshalls would hand us... AT THE MRT STATION!!!!!!!!... OMG.
And so, we had no choice... SOB SOB ... we descended the damn hill and ran to the MRT station. By then... I was half-dead. Having not done PE for close to 7 years... I'm actually amazed that i could endure climbing the hill again. So it was like up the hill, down the hill and UP the hill again! WAhhhhhhhh... So as i ascended.. i kept telling myself i could do it, i could do it. Everyone kept urging each other on. And we finally reached the peak. Oh my goodness...
And so we completed our task and then down the hill we went... AGAIN. Phew! It was 11.30am. After deducing our next clue to be at City Hall, we took a bus back to Bukit Gombak MRT (we took a different trail down so we had to take a bus) and grabbed lunch (I had Mac.. hehe.. shiok) before heading for City Hall. Our next stop was Victorial memorial hall. However, we got really lost before we managed to find the place. And again.. we wasted time. Haiz.
When we found the place, we had to take the bearings of various statues such as the Raffles Stamford statue and the Elephant statue outside the Parliament house. When we handed up the answers, i took a glimpse of how the marshall marked our papers and i think we got plenty of crosses... Bleh... but u cannot blame us! We've never learnt how to obtain bearings from actual monuments before!
Haiz~ ... By then, it was already 3.15pm!
We ran to our next stop... hoping to complete at least 3 out of 6 stops. That checkpoint was at the OCBC bank at Raffles. When we finally answered the questions they gave, it was already 3.57pm and so we decided not to go to our 4th stop already.. [Who would be so stupid?]
And so we headed to Toa Payoh HDB Hub... and we changed back into our school uniform [ we were wearing the geotrail t-shirt ]. Sat for the prize giving ceremony and had a little refreshments... before we headed home. Luckily Dad picked me from Toa Payoh... heh heh. [Muacks to daddy!]
Lessons learnt/My evaluations from/of yesterday:
Alright. As registration starts at 7.15am, my team and I met at Pasir Ris MRT at 6am. We headed for Clementi and arrived at about 7.40am at NUS. We registered and waited in the Lecture Theatre. Before the competition could start, we had to do a word puzzle! Sheesh.. luckily it was not too bad. Despite it being on current affairs, we still managed to pull through. We found the 'password' to be GEOGRAPHY IMAGINATION and we got our first clue. It was 9.20am.
Alrite, so the first clue was like a picture of a scenic view in Southern China and they said it was the Singapore Version. Using the map grid reference, we found the place to be at Bukit Gombak. So we travelled to Bukit Batok via bus and took a MRT train to Bukit Gombak. BIG mistake... cause we actually wasted a lot of time on travelling. We should have just taken a bus to Clementi and then go to Bukit Gombak via MRT. Haiz~
But nonetheless, we found out where we were suppose to go... UP A FREAKIN STEEP HILL! I was like OMG... SO we climbed and we climbed and we climbed... and we finally reached the top! Woohoo....
HOWEVER, upon arrival at the peak, the marshalls asked us for the clue so we handed them that clue with the view of Southern China and they said that it was NOT THE CLUE THEY WANTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We were shocked.. literally stunned. So we asked them which clue they wanted... and they said that it was the clue that the marshalls would hand us... AT THE MRT STATION!!!!!!!!... OMG.
And so, we had no choice... SOB SOB ... we descended the damn hill and ran to the MRT station. By then... I was half-dead. Having not done PE for close to 7 years... I'm actually amazed that i could endure climbing the hill again. So it was like up the hill, down the hill and UP the hill again! WAhhhhhhhh... So as i ascended.. i kept telling myself i could do it, i could do it. Everyone kept urging each other on. And we finally reached the peak. Oh my goodness...
And so we completed our task and then down the hill we went... AGAIN. Phew! It was 11.30am. After deducing our next clue to be at City Hall, we took a bus back to Bukit Gombak MRT (we took a different trail down so we had to take a bus) and grabbed lunch (I had Mac.. hehe.. shiok) before heading for City Hall. Our next stop was Victorial memorial hall. However, we got really lost before we managed to find the place. And again.. we wasted time. Haiz.
When we found the place, we had to take the bearings of various statues such as the Raffles Stamford statue and the Elephant statue outside the Parliament house. When we handed up the answers, i took a glimpse of how the marshall marked our papers and i think we got plenty of crosses... Bleh... but u cannot blame us! We've never learnt how to obtain bearings from actual monuments before!
Haiz~ ... By then, it was already 3.15pm!
We ran to our next stop... hoping to complete at least 3 out of 6 stops. That checkpoint was at the OCBC bank at Raffles. When we finally answered the questions they gave, it was already 3.57pm and so we decided not to go to our 4th stop already.. [Who would be so stupid?]
And so we headed to Toa Payoh HDB Hub... and we changed back into our school uniform [ we were wearing the geotrail t-shirt ]. Sat for the prize giving ceremony and had a little refreshments... before we headed home. Luckily Dad picked me from Toa Payoh... heh heh. [Muacks to daddy!]
Lessons learnt/My evaluations from/of yesterday:
- Geotrail is as good as taking a NAPFA 2.4km run over and over again..
- Some people are just hypocrites.. and i mean really hypocrites!
- I need to know more about current affairs..
- We need to learn physical geog in order to pull through the Geography Challenge
- Raffles Girls.. or anyone from Raffles... are damn smart people
- The Department of Geography at NUS are bloody efficient... heh heh... BLOODY
- I need to work on my stamina [after this trail... I'll have surely worked on it!]
- My endurance and determination level can actually be quite high... lol... self-praise.. tooot
- And lastly, i trained my leg muscles!!... -.-".. lol..
Sunday, March 13, 2005 . 9:35 PM
Haiz... what can I say... Life of a student. Here, let me reveal my life to ya.Monday - Celebrating Xue Ying's Birthday at Crepes n Creams in Citylink Mall, then go to Eng Wah at Suntec to watch Howl's Moving Castle.
Tuesday - CCA from 12nn all the way to 7pm at night. We'll be heading to Chinatown to get our props from 3pm onwards.
Wednesday - Doctor's appointment at CGH in the morning, thank god for Daddy. Then going Fuji Ice Palace with ma juniors to ice skate. All the way at Jurong East...
Thursday - Chem session from 9am to 1pm. Then we may be group studying...
Friday - the most hectic day of the week. Geography challenge from 6am to 9pm at night!!!!!!!!
Saturday - ??
Sunday - ??
Quite hectic... but i admit it's gonna be quite fun. The only freaking tooting idiotic thing is HOMEWORK... -.-"